Drabble

[webbgirl]

I was in an angsty kinda mood today so...basically here's the result.  I'm not sure what to call it.  A drabble?  Maybe it qualifies as a poem?  Although, I wouldn't consider it quite poetry.

I also debated on even stating whose perspective it was from.  Soooo, comment if you'd like to know and can't figure it out.

WARNING:  Kinda high angst factor on this and no happy ending.

Just once, I wanted him to look at me and really see me.
Just once, I wanted him to see me and not the job.
Just once, I wanted him to see me as his first choice and not his fallback position.
 
Just once, I wanted to be the reason he showed up at my door.
Just once, I wanted him to be rid of the ghosts.
Just once, I wanted the sense of betrayal to fade away.
 
So many days of telling myself ‘never again’.
So many nights of giving in.
So many nights of being a substitute.
So many nights of wishing I were someone else.
So many nights of knowing that I never could be.
 
And now the angel has fallen.  The masterpiece is returned to it’s rightful place.  The pale imitation is returned to the shelf.  Wishing. Longing. Hoping to be touched again, just once.

 

Comments

[castalie.livejournal.com]

Powerful piece.

Hope you're feeling better though {{Hugs}}

[webbgirl.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Just in a bit of a mood lately. Nothing too bad. It's just hard to get the brain cells and everything else firing.

I should just go home and watch 'Man In The Moon' or 'Roman Holiday'.

They're my two, I wanna have a good cry for no damn good reason movies. I usually have a bit of a headache after, but then I feel better.

Maybe I'll just look at my icon for awhile and giggle.

*smooch*

(((((Webby))))))

[gategrrl.livejournal.com]

Aw, poor Davis! :-(

Hope your mood swings back up. Could it be you're coming down with one of those awful colds going around?

And I LOVE Roman Holiday. Gregory Peck. Audrey Hepburn. Roma. Getting wet in the river. Transformation from girl to woman. The wacky photographer, Eddie ? So full of eye candy. And the words...gotta get a DVD of this sometime.

Re: (((((Webby))))))

[webbgirl.livejournal.com]

Thanks Julie.

Maybe it is the cold thing. I can't seem to get enough rest lately. I'm thinking that has something to do with it as well.

I'm an Audrey Hepburn FREAK, so it's one of my alltime favorite movies.

'Man In The Moon' was Reese Witherspoon's first movie, and she reminds me a little of Audrey Hepburn. I think that's why I love that movie so much too. Plus I just adore Sam Waterston.

[frahulettaes.livejournal.com]

ouch, honey.
very nice.

[webbgirl.livejournal.com]

Thanks hun. It felt nice to get something out.

[aostara.livejournal.com]

Lovely bit of angst! Hmmm... maybe I should try that as a cure for the blues... after watching the slashfest on the WB for a couple of hours. That way if they cheer me up I can write make-up sex. If not, I have an angsty break-up scene to fall back on.

As for POV... I'm pretty sure I know who *you* wrote it for, but I could see it for non-canon Sam as well. Or pretty much ANYONE interested in Jack who doesn't have the good fortune to be Daniel. ;->

[webbgirl.livejournal.com]

It helped a bit. I got my DVD of 'Whale Rider' in the mail today. That's a great one for sitting and having a cry.

I did some heavy cleaning when I got home and tried some meditation...but I can't meditate worth a damn. May try the hot tub and see how that goes.

Ooo...and I still have Blind Man's Bluff to watch tonight too. Angst with a happy ending.

[karendreamer.livejournal.com]

OH Wow....I hope you find someplace to post that work. It needs to be shared. It is beautiful.

Karen

[webbgirl.livejournal.com]

I'm going to try to add it to my website today.

I haven't decided whether to post it to any of the lists or not. I might just post an announcement on them that I made a fic update.

[chocolate-haze.livejournal.com]

This is great. Very evocative.

[webbgirl.livejournal.com]

Thanks. It just sorta happened.

YAY you're here!!!!

[chocolate-haze.livejournal.com]

*grins* Wanted to see what the hubub was all about.

My page still needs a little work. I'm thinking making it all pink in honor of Joan.

[webbgirl.livejournal.com]

Heehee...I should wear pink on May 1st just for her.

It's a fun place to hang out.